Hey everyone!! :D So the 'Super K-pop Dance Contest' was held today, just now actually.

My alarm went off at 7am. Went back to sleep for a few more minutes, and luckily my mum woke me up! I was soo tired. I could barely open my eyes. My head was hurting and I was on zombie-mode. e_e I dragged myself to shower. Got ready and stuff, then Sasha called me and said she was downstairs.

Way way wayyyy before today, Sasha actually told me that she couldn't be there with me for the competition. You cannot imagine how sad I was!

So yeah, I went down, and Dira was there too. The both of them were so pretty, with their makeup and hair done and all that stuff, so I was like, "you guys going where?" AND GUESS WHAT THEIR REPLY WAS...

..."with you".

LOL right!! At that moment I literally screamed and jumped for joy man. LOL. Can they get any more cruel not.

Sasha said she couldn't leave me like that alone, aww.

So yeah, we took the MRT to Novena and we were damn early pls. Charles was there with a few other contestants. Practiced a little and stuff. Then signed up. Lol, really did nothing else lor. Slacking around only until the registrations were open.

I was #15! :)

Then.... we found out that my cd couldn't be played... ._. So we had no choice but to use the original song. Which... I didn't really have a problem with, until I suddenly thought of the 'floor part'. There's this one part in 'Bubblepop' that Hyuna goes down and kinda lies down on the floor. I really hate that part 'cause I HATE FLOOR PARTSSSS. D:<

But it was okay. We went out to practice and I swear today's weather is SO DAMN HOT that I was sweating as if I just came out of the swimming pool! Or was it what I was wearing... hm. :x

When it was my turn, my heart was pumping really fast. Nervous but the crowd made me feel so much better! :D

It was fun! :)

So we went to eat while waiting for results, and again, guess what? WE WERE LATE!

Happy eating and when we came back, they were taking a group picture of all the finalists! We looked at each other and all of us were like... O_O... O_O..... O____O..... Wut.

Yeah, like that.

Then Sasha and Dira went around asking whether I got in or not. And while I was standing there like a fool with a blur face, a lot of people came up to me and were like "congratulations!" O_O face again. Then at that moment, in my head I was thinking, "wait, if they are congratulating me that means... I'm in lah?" HAHA. STUPID RIGHT.

So I randomly took out my phone, to prevent awkwardness la, stand there like a fool. Then I got a text saying that I'm in to the second round. Then I went to search for Sasha and Dira, and they were also still blur. I HAD TO CONFIRM WHETHER I WAS IN OR NOT. We went around asking whether #15 got in or not, and everyone was like YES, YES, YOU'RE IN, CONGRATULATIONS.

DAMN HAPPY OR FUCKING HAPPY SIA LOL. :D!

Then Haru joked around and said "sorry, not number 15 but 50". At that moment my heart fell but then in my head (again) I was like, "it's impossible that there are about 50 contestants here". HAHAHA.

So yeah! I got in!

To have people compliment me and stuff like that, especially those people that I look up to! IS REALLY A BIG THING FOR ME!! <3

And to have someone recognize me and go "eh, you're the one at teensupreme right?" REALLY MAKES ME HAPPY TOO. :)))

Ahhhh, but sad that I didn't get to join in the group picture! >< Shucks....

Today = one of the most memorable day of my life. :)

And oh, during registrations, we were suppose to take pictures. I mean like, there was this camera-woman (?). And now I know why we had to take pictures. :)

.... Online voting!

Please vote for me and support me!!!! I beg you! I don't go around telling people to like my pictures and shit like that but this is important! Please, please, please help me, vote for me, spread it around, tell your friends to vote for me too. Very, very much appreciated!!

^^^^ I'm not sure if there's actually online voting. >.< But if there is, I'll update again, okay? :D

Love you all!

And thank you Allah for everything.

Finals will be on the 18th of February. Same place, at Novena Square 2. Bring boards, signs, banners, whatever! Just come come come and cheer me on! And for the rest also. :)

I have more than enough time to choose a song (I already have a song in mind :P) and practice, so I shall focus on my birthday first!!!! :D

Goodnight! SUCKS, TOMORROW SCHOOL. UGH. =.=

P/S: I'm waiting for all the pictures. Update again soon in a new post. <3

EDITED SOME PICTURES ALREADY! :D

My beloved manager dongsaeng and hairstylist dongsaeng! Don't know what I'd do without them. Looove them to bits! <3 <3 <3

AIMAN!!!! :DDDD I RESPECT HIM! <3

With Akif, Travis, Amira and Haru! All amazing dancers!!! <3

Problem after problem. Fucking fed-up. It's 1am, I have not gone to sleep because I'm pissed off and I have to wake up early to get ready for the auditions. I hope I won't screw up because of lack of sleep or because of all these nasty thoughts running through my head right now! Yeah, I know I've said it that I'm going for experience and to have fun (I obviously can't have FUN when I'm angry like this)! But I hate messing up! So I don't want to screw up because I will feel like SHIT when I mess up!! Whether I'm auditioning for fun or for experience, I still cannot mess up.

Out of topic. I'm really angry right now. I need a punching bag. That way I can release my anger AND gain some muscles! Instead of screaming and shouting (I actually can't at home), I'll only end up with a sorethroat. OH YES MY BIRTHDAY IS NEXT MONTH, A PUNCHING BAG WOULD BE NICE, OH AND A PAIR OF GLOVES. A pink punching bag and pink gloves would be awesome.

You wanna know why I'm angry?!

1. Fake people. I shall not elaborate any further.

2. PEOPLE WHO JUDGE. Stop judging! Doesn't mean I go out with a guy, that person is my boyfriend. The fuck. Doesn't mean I wear shorts and a tank top I'm a slut. AH, SO YOUR MUM'S A SLUT 'CAUSE SHE WEARS SHORTS AND TANK TOPS TOO. Haha.

3. That guy.

4. That girl.

5. A group of people.

I'm too lazy to write more, I'm just angry la wtf.

GOODNIGHT!

Tired.

Just so bloody tired. Do you know that I am TIRED?? So sick of everything. So sick and tired of being sick and tired. So frustrated with myself. Having mixed feelings. So many things in my head, I hate it, I hate it, I HATE IT!!

Keeping everything to myself. Bottling up everything. Having mixed feelings. I don't know who to talk to. I don't know who to trust. I'm scared.

What's wrong with me? :'( Why am I being like this...

Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts.

Heehee, *winkwink.

My money is gone.... like poof.

Gone.

D:

First day of school was not bad. :)

I CAN'T BELIEVE I SLEPT IN THE HALL, PUAHAHA. I was tired ok. :( And my head was hurting really bad.

Not looking forward to tomorrow. Sigh.

Hey sexies. :] ♥ So it's already the new year and school is starting in a few days and I have soo many things I gotta do (not school related :P)!

I have to register for the Super K-pop Dance Contest and start preparing already since it's only a few weeks away! And yes, I'm auditioning as a soloist again. :D If I tell y'all I'll be dancing with some sort of a 'lightstick', do you guys know what song I am going to do? :P Hehe, shhhh~ Sasha and I will be searching for a lightstick, for the meantime, I'm gonna use an umbrella to dance... LOL. Awkwaaaard.... xD

I'm planning to get my earlobes pierced again, weehee! Pierced twice but they closed up really quick. :/ Been DYINGGG to wear pretty earrings and studs! So I'm gonna pierce again! :) Soon soon~~~ And also my bellybutton piercing!! Also been pestering mama to follow me get my navel piercing ('cause you know how much it costs and I have no money to pay for it :P (so I'm gonna drag my mum, HEHE)). But the navel piercing can wait. :)

Also have to stock up on eyelashes!! Mascara on my real lashes aren't enough. :x Feel damn naked without fake lashes. Also need face masks and eye masks and facial foam and stuff like that. And you know where is the place that I can find all these stuff the CHEAPEST?? Daiso! :3 Yeah yeah, some of you might call me cheapskate and whatever. I'm only 15 and I don't want to spend my money on expensive makeup and facial products, you see. At least not yet.. The things from daiso are good and everything is only $2! Imported from Japan somemore lehhhh...

Have to go shopping too. Like reallyyyy badly. Need to get at least ONE new pair of heels! >< At least one. One that I can wear for dance (yeah, I dance in heels :P), that matches anything that I wear, for any photoshoot, and FOR MY 16TH BIRTHDAY PARTY! (I will go to that later 8D)

Do you guys remember the dress I wore for my 15th birthday? For those of you who went, AND are also invited for my 16th birthday, you guys will be going to see that dress again... :P xD Yes! I'm gonna be wearing that dress again! BUT, I'm gonna send it for altering, gonna chop it off and make it short! But not what you think ah... not too short!! Knee length or maybe a little bit below the knee? :) And gonna tighten the chest area, 'cause I look preggers in that dress, lol. >.> And since the dress is plain black (it's velvet btw), I'll be adding either a red or white silk ribbon when I wear it. :)

So yes, about my 16th birthday party. :D I don't wanna make it a really big one. Maybe yeah. :x I haven't really chose the venue. But it will be on a weekend. A few days earlier than my actual birthday. A Saturday. My birthday falls on a Tuesday this year, which is on a school day. I don't know whether to be sad or happy. I can't possibly get a day off... right? And it's kinda sad how it falls on CNY because all the cake shops are closed during that period of time so you know how piss off I am that I can NOT get a freaking cake for my birthday!!! :'( Sigh, but I can't do anything. Anyway, I have quite a number of people that I want to invite in my mind right now. Hmm... Nothing's really a problem, just the venue. And that already makes a big problem. -_- Sigh, I just hope everything will go well, and as planned. Amin.

So that's prolly all that I have to say today. (x

Next update will probably be after school? :) Yepyep.

Byebye lovelies. ♥